BREKKAN, age: 26
WHAT ARE YOU DREAMING?
“What was my most recent dream? I am dreaming of a lot of, like, wedding related things…like nightmares — I keep having these recurring dreams that we get to the wedding day and things aren’t planned. Like, “Oh my god! I forgot to get a florist!”, so we’re running around trying to put up flowers.”
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
“Things getting worse with my family…worse than they already are.”
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BODY?
“Umm…it’s not my favorite stage I’ve been in, weight-wise. But I’m happy with where it’s gotten me.”
WHAT DO YOU REGRET?
“Umm….there’s not a lot I regret right now. Is that bad?”
WHAT DO YOU LOVE ABOUT YOU?
“My compassion toward others, and understanding of peoples’ situations and how it may affect how they choose to live their life.”
WHAT COLOR ARE YOU LOVING? WHY?
“Green…like eucalyptus. Because I just love plants. And I love, like, the natural, very neutral tones.”
WHAT IS LOVE?
“Hmm…I think it can be a lot of things. And it’s different with who you are loving….that’s a hard one — I don’t know. Yeah, I think it can be a lot of different things, and it’s different for everybody and it’s different for who you’re loving.”
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
“A mom…a grandma…and a wife. And, a nurse practitioner.”
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE HELD?
“Probably by Jordan…and probably when I got in a car crash, and he came and hugged me when he got there… and I sobbed into him.”
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE WRONG?
“Probably…I think the last time Anthony contacted me, and I let my…hopes up a little bit? Like, that it was gonna get better? And it hasn’t…it’s gotten worse. It’s gotten a lot worse. So I think that’s it — I got my hopes up, and I was wrong.”
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU FELT HAPPY?
“Today. On the pontoon. Watching my puppy swim in the water.”
WHERE IS HOME?
“Anywhere with Jordan and Roux.”
WHO ARE YOUR PEOPLE?
“My family…my mom and my siblings, and my grandma and grandpa. And Jordan, and you all. And Bri and Tara.”
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU FELT SAD?
“Right now, after saying that out loud.”
HOW DO YOU TAKE CARE OF YOU?
“Sleep…yeah, sleep — that’s my self-care.”
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE 26 YEARS OLD?
“Scary…being closer to 30 than I am 20. But it’s exciting, too."